selling my home & looking ahead

So I'm in the process of trying to sell my house. IT SUCKS! The amount of work that I completed within a 2 week period has been mind blowing. I HATE MANUAL LABOR! OK, I think I need to repeat that...

I HATE MANUAL LABOR!!!! I never imagined that there was so much work involved. I have been working my ass off pulling weeds, planting flowers, redoing the pond liner on a 1200 gallon koi pond, painting the trim inside and outside house, cleaning like crazy, staining the fence...the list goes on and on. Not to mention that I still have to replace the kitchen floor due to the leaky fridge & finish staining the fence.

Here's a pic of the pond just after it was completed a couple of weeks ago.

To check out the listing, just go to http://www.realtracs.com/ MLS # 1091523


Trying to do all of this while maintaining my sanity and also still be a good full time dad is just hard. Now that the house is officially listed, I am now able to relax just a little (yeah right)! Seeing everything completed that I have wanted done for the last few years is so sad. I don't want to sell the house in the 1st place, but am left without many options since the "divorce" or whatever you wanna call the end of my 9 year relationship since us gays can't officially marry. I keep telling myself this is the best option for me and Hanna. I want her to live a better life than average life. Still, I will miss my neighbors, my privacy, my pond, the lake right next to my house, being able to let Romy out whenever she wants. I think I will even miss the dreaded yard work once it is gone.


Life will be different soon enough. I'm hoping I still have what it takes to be able to tolerate apartment living. It has been about 10 years or so since I was last in this place. I keep telling myself that I am a much better person now. I am an adult. I am capable. I am determined. I AM SOMEBODY AGAIN DAMN IT! But I am also a little scared about the future. This is all new territory for me. I haven't been single in more than a decade. I know know that I don't need someone by my side to be successful or to make it through the storm. The last couple of years as a couple (hahaha) have taught me that. I KNOW that I am strong enough. I just hope I will be a good dad, and a good person who can contribute to society. I have given up on the childhood wishes of being famous. I won't give up on being my own personal success!